Quadriatic Life (Senryu)

 

Quadriatic mood–

emotional dysfunction…..

Borderline living

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I know most of you are thinking “HUH”?  So here is the explanation.  I had a revelation when my gifted daughter was attempting to explain quadriatic equations to me, which in laymen terms are “U-curves” or “waves”.  It’s bad enough that I have to learn from a child in school; even worse that at the time, she was in 7th grade.  Yes, quadriatic equations are being taught in 7th grade gifted classes.  Mind blowing.

Anyway, I like math concepts and theoretical physics.  I just cant do the math (although poetry is closely related to math, and I know several mathmaticians who indulge in the art).

While my daughter was explaining the equation for quadriatic U curves, I realized that here was a math equation for dysregulated moods!  And “quadriatic life” stuck in my head.  Now if there was just some lasting way to flatten the top of the curve out a bit……

So what are quadriatic U-curves? The math of quadratics is intrinsically related to a U-shaped curve known as a parabola. Perhaps the most familiar example is a stream of water that shoots from a drinking fountain. There are many other examples, such as the cross-section of a satellite dish or the cables on a suspension bridge.

Psychologists use the parabolic curve to map out the “wave” of moods.  In mood dysregulation, the top of the curve ( or the highest intensity of the mood) is much higher and wider than persons without mood disorders.  I was able to put this together during one of my DBT sessions.  DBT (dialectical behavioral therapy) is a treatment for borderline personality disorder and I have so far found it to be transformative.  For the first time in 40 years, I have really started to know who I am and how I function.  My hope is that a better, wiser, less impulsive, less dysregulated ME will eventually emerge.

Senryu: same as Haiku structure but the theme is generally related to relationships or feelings while Haiku stresses nature

 

Purposeful Life (Senryu)

Our reason for life

God’s beloved creation

Worship gives purpose

This is why we are here.  I hope that you will find this truth in your life someday.  For me, kicking myself out of the drivers’ seat and placing Jesus there has transformed my life.  Keep searching and ask the Holy Spirit to guide you to the truth of the gospel.

Senryu: same as Haiku in structure but theme is related to feelings and relationships

 

Letting Go (Senryu)

Disordered Living

A struggle against lifes’ flow

Take His hand; let go

I have been in DBT therapy for Borderline Personality Disorder.  It is so very hard, but I am trying to let go.  With the help of God’s grace and faith and the Bible I hope to put on the “new man” as Paul describes it and be a model of Jesus in the future.

Senryu: same as Haiku structure but the theme is generally related to relationships or feelings while Haiku stresses nature

Mindful Balance (Senryu)

Static state of mind

“Have to” must equal “want to”

Make time to just “be”

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Peaceful mindfulness

Synchronous with values

Seek quiet moments

I am working on mindfulness and these reflective words encouraged me.  I hope they do the same to you.

Senryu: same as Haiku structure but the theme is generally related to relationships or feelings while Haiku stresses nature

Lost Moments (Senryu)

Life cut short, I mourn

your rejection of His Grace.

Saturating tears

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Hell’s fire, treasure yours

Hindsight seizes inner thoughts:

Could I have said more?

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Witnessed chance now lost

Those hesitant moments passed!

Your soul the true cost

I have periods where I feel terrible about my poor witness for my faith.  Lost souls haunt me and I feel the burden.  This poem was an attempt to  creatively share that burden with others who may feel the same way.

Senryu: same as Haiku structure but the theme is generally related to relationships or feelings while Haiku stresses nature

Useless (Senryu)

 

Dreary fog-wrapped days

endless longing, thread-bare hopes…

Superfluous life

Senryu: same as Haiku structure but the theme is generally related to feelings or relationships while Haiku stresses nature

 

It is Hopelessness, even more than Pain, that Crushes the Soul

William Styron