Breathe (Nonet)

Facing performance anxiety-
my lifelong vocal nemesis-
is like flying with clipped wings;
floating in an updraft,
crashing to the ground.
This songbird has
air flow…..

For mindlovesmisery prompt: Immobilizing paranoia

I have had performance anxiety my entire life.  As a singer, it has been a lifetime of frustration and terror.  I love to sing with all my heart, but I am limited by my inability to sing in front of others.  So I compromise and record songs and put them out on my other blog.  At first, just recording them was a herculean effort, although with practice I am much more comfortable knowing that all I need do is erase it if I don’t like what I hear.  Someday I would like to sing live.  I am to record the background for my dad’s memorial service and I cringe at the thought that others will hear it. But I know my dad would love for me to do this for his service, so I shall persevere.

Nonet: A nonet has nine lines. The first line has nine syllables, the second line eight syllables, the third line seven syllables, etc… until line nine finishes with one syllable. It can be on any subject and rhyming is optional.